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A Broken Heart and Enraged

Journal Entry: Fri Jun 19, 2009, 10:24 AM

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*sigh* How has everyone been? =/

As much as I hate to rant, I'm really having a rough time. Apparently the biggest drama going around has to do with my brother. I love him...very much. But because of last night...I don't know what to do anymore.

He lied...not only once or twice, but three times.

So apparently he was grounded for getting a ticket for speeding ( note he's also 17 years old...ffs... ). Last night, my mother made a "Contract" with him. Here is a brief info on it:

"1. I will do my best in school.
2. I will not do drugs or drink alcohol.
3. I will not lie to my parents.
4. I will always try to make the best choices possible in all situations
Signed: My brother ( I refuse to answer his name ) "

He signed this with my mother and agreed to obey the rules. As he said he was going to see his "Girlfriend".

...TWO FUCKING HOURS LATER... the police call home to explain that he and his friends were caught smoking at a skate park.

He's a liar. Nothing but a selfish liar who cares about nothing but himself. I tried to be a good brother. I gave him all of my support and love for almost 19 years of my life. But what does he do with it? He screws it all up. And now he has to go to court and he has caused my parents to be so freaking stressed out, that it's almost into a crisis now.

-_-...not happy. I waste so much from me all for him and yet he wastes it.

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This will be my only threat. No one, absolutely NO ONE FUCKING TOUCHES MY GIRL. The moment I hear the name "Derro" or his friends, I will fucking cave his face into the ground, along with his friends too.

4 years of Taekwando, A degree in weapon training, and 7 years of Tackle American Football against people who are 3x my size (aka: about 250lbs + , dead serious).

You don't want to get on my bad side -_-.

Just...oye...

I apologize for such an awful rant

...just a lot of crap has been happening in my life. I hate the fact that bad things always happen to good people

...I wish it could just all end.

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~Grathiam Jun 19, 2009, 10:45:26 AM

Wow...just wow. You, sir, are one of the most impressive individuals I have ever seen. I mean, that is a LOT to have to go through, and look at you! You haven't used your fighting experiences to go out and just VENT. I would think with the seven years of football and four years of taekwando and all of that would make it too tempting to go out and just find some idiot to beat all heck out of.

The fact that you're here, writing a rant instead to deal with you anger is one of the most impressive, honorable, kind, self-controlling things I have ever seen anyone do. I'm glad to see there are still people like you in this world. We NEED people like you.

And...don't forget he is your brother. Yes, he's made some REALLY stupid choices, but he's family. That could, in its own way, just as easily have been you. You hate the choices he's made, but try to be there for him. (Provided he makes an honest effort to turn himself around from that.) I'd say get him away from whatever friends he has that got him into that junk, find a rehab center and sign him into it, (if that's what it takes) and just try to help him get his life back. If you haven't already, talk to your parents about it. Ask them what they think needs to happen with him. (Sometimes, spending some time in jail is just what they need. It's harsh, but sometimes it just has to be that way, you know?) Since you can't help your brother directly, do what you can for the rest of the family. You said it yourself. They were freaking out over this. They'll need some kind of help.

Oh, and one more thing.

If you need someone to rant to about ANYTHING, you can come straight to me. I'll listen, my friend.

Grath.

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!Mr-Hazard Jun 19, 2009, 10:56:58 AM

Man, I really hope things get better... It pains me to see my best friends go through such things, but just remember that you are an exceptional person, and the choices others make aren't your fault. As for the piece of shit who thinks he can go around beating women, I'm right there with you. I would bash his face into a rock so much he would have trouble recognizing himself. Just try not to get into trouble... scumbags like that aren't worth going to jail for. ;3

~DemonicWeasel999 Jun 19, 2009, 11:06:40 AM

Thats awful,.. im sorry....

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*Dawgjr Jun 19, 2009, 11:33:22 AM

T.T as it does hurt me too

oye. You're right

I can't be responsible for anyone's choice in their life, but what I can do is still give them my support.

As for that scumbag, I'd just rather not run into him while I'm over there x.x...because I really don't want to end up in jail just because I encounter him.

Thank you kobalt T.T

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*Dawgjr Jun 19, 2009, 11:37:42 AM

Knowing myself, I've made a dedication that I will have self control no matter the situation, but to be honest, I really do feel like doing that on the inside

. But it's like...violence isn't really going to solve anything.

Thank you for your kind words

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I understand he's my brother. I love him...SO much. I'm just in an extremely shocked state right now. I'm still going to give him all of my support, because I love him and I know that he can make better choices. He just needs to find it in himself and find the responsibility he once had.

Thank you so much for your support Grath

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~GeotheDragon Jun 19, 2009, 11:58:25 AM

Holy........ That's just. Wow....

I mean, I don't know what to say about that. You and Ash both...

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*Umi-Satome Jun 19, 2009, 12:12:01 PM

wow thats freakin bull shit.
I hate that both of you are having such a terrible time hon. ; ;

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*Maria-disaster Jun 19, 2009, 1:52:06 PM

I'm so sorry you have to go through something like that with your brother. I do agree with Grathiam here, on this one...he is family, and if signing him into a rehab center is the best way to get him on the right track (plus reevaluating his friends), then you should probably do that.

As for your reaction to what happened with your girlfriend...I hope you see him again. Okay, harassing someone is ONE thing, but actually PUNCHING her...he's got to be the lowest man there is. Anyone who would HIT a girl is SO BLINKING STUPID and PATHETIC. He has no control...heh. I laugh at people who hit other people because they THINK they're strong, when really...they're the weakest people on the face of this entire planet.

And hey...I KNOW Grathiam can relate to you on that bit. It's perfectly normal (and GOOD) that you want to protect your girlfriend. I mean...when Grathiam found out I had been harassed at work, he honestly wanted to PUNCH the guy in the face. He's not a violent GUY, either! But he REALLY hoped he could see him, so that he could give him a piece of his mind (like..."NO HARASSING MY GIRL!!! YOU LAY OFF AND KEEP AWAY FROM HER, OR ELSE" kind of thing...). Yeah. But, really...you don't have to apologize for needing to rant like this. Like Grathiam said, it's the best way to vent. ^__^ And hey...drawing a picture of beating up the guy that hurt your girlfriend is a GREAT way to vent too! Trust me! I got mad at a few people, and that's one GREAT way to vent! :3

I hope things get better. At first, when you said broken heart...I thought that you and she had broken up! I'm just glad that wasn't the case...although, I hate that she got hurt and isn't doing so well either. I just hope that things work out.

Feel better!

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=firedarkdragon Jun 19, 2009, 2:19:11 PM

First off.. Me, in your place, i wouldnt give a shit anymore about that brother of yours.. he is a lost cause and theres nothing much you can do about him.. Nuff said :/ (I hope he decides to change someday tho)

As for the other thing.. It just made me angry.. i wish i could describe it better, but i dont wish to start swearing. What im going to say is.. Too damn bad i am not there, because people like that angers me BADLY at the point of rage and agression..
DJ, do me a favor.. If you ever see that piece of worthless stinky rotted meat, give it a nice punch right in the eye for me, please? And be sure to squeeze its neck so hard that its face turns blue (Yes, "IT"). I would do it myself, but im a bit too far.. :/

Sorry if i seem cold. These kind of things enrage me.. and i feel frustrated for not being able to help :/

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