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edit: I'm sorry for the slow response everyone...right now I just need time to think and I'll be slowly responding to everyone ; ;...but I will say this, thank you so much for this support...it means so much, SO MUCH to me ; ;...like you have no idea T.T...Thank you so much ; ;... /end edit


I'm sorry for the title...but I have to rant


I hate ranting...before I say anything I apologize.



...remember my last journal and my last poll...about giving and receiving? ...


All I ever want to do is give ; ;...and I only want to make someone happy. I don't want any items to cheer me up ; ;...I only want to be with her.

it's all that I ask for

It is all that I ask for.

I'm hanging on as much as I could...but it's so hard to when you have someone across from the other side of the world, begging to see you.


...another thing...

people who complain about relationships...such as boyfriend or girlfriend about not seeing each other when you can easily meet each other next door or etc.

listen to me

shut the fuck up



Shut

The

Fuck

Up



I am disgusted of you, whining about something that you can CHOOSE to see your loved one anytime that you want.

I HAVE A choice but it requires time and to wait to see her... so suck it up and deal with it. at least you don't have to be across from the other side of the world, worrying your ass off for your loved one.


I'm just sick of this.

I'm sick of listening to flaming, stupid complaints, and having to deal with

DRAMA

...don't even get me on to that topic.




let me put it this way, I'm literally crying my eyes out as I am typing this and making this journal.

I give so much sympathy to everyone.

but sometimes I feel like I never receive the same in return.

Why do I deserve such a thing?

Why am I so giving?


I don't like it ; ; because it keeps on hurting me.



...I have never asked this in my life before.


I need help.


I really need someone to help me with this.


it is all that I am asking for.




I only want everyone to be happy... but I blame myself because I can't.

Stolen from

.:FIRE:.

[ ] You have a short temper.
[ ] You often act on your emotions without thinking first.
[x] You are very competitive.
[x] You like to play with fire.
[ ] You are not a strong swimmer or you can't swim at all.
[x] You prefer warm weather over cold weather.
[ ] You often lose control over yourself.
[x] You can be quite reckless.
[ ] You sometimes hurt people without realizing it.
[x] People have often called you insane.
Total: 5

.:WATER:.

[x] You have a calm, laid-back personality.
[x] You like to go to the beach.
[x] You rarely get angry.
[x] When you do get angry, you know how to control it.
[ ] You think before you act.
[x] You are good at breaking up fights.
[x] You are a good swimmer.
[x] You like the rain.
[x] You can stay calm in stressful situations.
[x] You are very generous.
Total: 9

.:EARTH:.

[x] You are physically strong.
[x] You have a close connection with nature.
[x] You don't mind getting dirty.
[x] You form strong opinions on issues that concern you.
[x] You could easily survive in the wild.
[x] You care about the environment.
[ ] You can easily focus on your work without getting distracted.
[ ] You rarely get depressed.
[x] You aren't afraid of anything.
[x] You prefer to have a strict set of rules.
Total: 8

.:AIR:.

[x] You have a free spirit.
[ ] You hate rules.
[x] You prefer to be out in the open rather than in small, enclosed spaces.
[x] You hate to be restrained.
[ ] You are very independent and outgoing.
[x] You are quite intelligent.
[ ] You tend to be impatient.
[x] You are easily distracted.
[x] You can sometimes be hyperactive and/or annoying.
[x] You wish you could fly.
Total: 7

.: DARKNESS:.

[ ] You spend most of your time alone.
[x] You prefer nighttime over daytime.
[x] You like creepy things.
[ ] You like to play tricks on people.
[ ] Black is your favorite color.
[ ] You prefer the villains over the heroes in movies, TV shows, videogames, etc.
[ ] You don't talk much.
[ ] You are atheist.
[x] You don't mind watching scary movies.
[ ] You love to break the rules.
Total: 3

.:LIGHT:.

[x] You are very polite.
[x] You are spiritual.
[x] When someone is in trouble, you never hesitate to help them.
[x] You believe everything you see or hear.
[ ] You are afraid of the dark.
[x] You hate violence.
[x] You hope for world peace.
[x] You are generally a happy person.
[x] Everyone loves to be around you.
[ ] You always follow the rules.
Total: 8

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